So, with this second key I opened another door and it was to western medicine. In 1993 I graduated with my
LPN diploma. One good thing about 1993 was getting to wear a nursing hat and white uniform. I still
think we should wear those hats but I have not found any other nurse to agree with me. I do however continue
to wear the white uniform. The next 4 years I was a charge nurse for a nursing home. That pharmacology
class in college really paid off for this job because each evening I passed multiple medications to multiple
residents in a short amount of time. I realize now that my past loss of my mother was effecting my
nursing career. I felt she would have survived if the nurses and doctor would have been more attentive to
her. I was on a mission to make sure this was not going to happen to any of the residents but this task
proved overwhelming. I became angered and felt all alone in my crusade for patient advocacy. In my mind there
were 73 residents and only one of me. Why were we passing a dozen or more pills to each of these residents
anyway? My father and even my pharmacology class taught me that medications have many side effects. It
was quite obvious to me that half of these pills were to counteract the side effects of the other medications. Why
not safely eliminate some of these medications and therefore free up more time to spend with the resident. So, in
1997 I began working for the local rural hospital and I continue to work at this same hospital.
This hospital was the very same hospital where my mother died. One of the nurses that I work with remembers
the admission of my mother, my sister, and I to the hospitial in 1975. She even shared with me that my sister
and I were in room 244 together and my mother was in 238. I try not to think of my mother when I take care of
my patients in this room. Hospital work is a lot different than nursing home work. As a LPN I was
assigned to the medical surgical floor. I was very satisfied with this work. I felt I had more control
and my patients were getting good care. However, my past was still effecting me. The well being of my
patients consumed me and I was definately going to make sure their care and well being was protected. I was
every patients best nurse but I suspicion that I was a royal pain in the butt for some of the supervisors. I
could sense the supervisors frustration when I brought my may concerns to them. This confused me because I
felt a nuses role was to be the patients advocate. Here again I was going to prevent any harm from my
patients. I realize now that my past was overpowering me. I did slowly learn to trust more and tamed my fear
of harm and death. I received my RN degree in 2000 and the hospital reimbursed me for most of it. I found
my calling upon opening the door to this degree and it was obstetrics. This was one field where it is a must
that you are a patient advocate for 2 pateints and the supervisors and doctors don't mind this. To this day I
thoroughly enjoy obstretrics but they come far and few between in a rural hospital. 2 to 3 deliveries a
month is our average and that is good considering our hospital is in a town with a population of between 1600 to
1700. I do have to say that as a RN for a rural hospital your role is unique in comparison to the larger city
hospitals. You are responsible for ER, med surg, obstetrics, post surgicals, pediatrics, geriatrics, cardiac
clinic, ambulance, and more. I feel proud that I now have 9 years experience in all of this.
In 2006 I returned to the same nursing home that I worked for between 1989 and 1997. But this time I was
Director of Nursing. My number one goals were to improve patient care and employee working
conditions. Initially all my goals were becoming accomplished but I soon found out that I was fighting a
battle that could not be won. The beast I was fighting was corporate. I did not stand a chance with
patient advocacy as my best asset.
I returned back to the hospital in 2007 where I am now working in the cardiopulmonary, diabetes, anticoagulation
clinic department. Perfect for me because I have become an educator in disease prevention and I have to thank my
father for all the interest I have in this area. I also cont. to work on the nursing floor with obstetrics, med
surg, peds, geriatrics, post surgicals, or wherever the supervisor assigns me for the day.
Over the course of 16 years as nurse practicing western medicine I have gained trust in this medicine, have seen
many benefits, and realize there is a time and place for it. Over my lifetime I have also greatly benefited
personally from alternative medicine. My father continues to avoid western medicine as much as he can and there is
no convincing him any different. I only hope that the next key given to me will open a door where Eastern and
Western medicine will compliment each other. Health care would have the best of both worlds if this would
happen.
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